I(Anita) was reading back through the journal I kept, while on my trip to Beautiful Gate, this past October. It made me smile to read my journal entry because when I wrote all my thoughts, it never once occurred to me that I would be returning to Beautiful Gate.
October 11, 2009
"After church, we spent lots of time in the baby houses holding the littlest orphans here at Beautiful Gate. I love holding them and praying that they will have families soon. It has been the saddest, happiest, most beautiful, and most heart breaking week of my life. I don't even know how to journal my thoughts and feelings. I love it here. I don't want to leave the orphans, the people, the singing, the mountains, and the closeness I feel to God. I hope I am changed for my whole life and my heart will break for all the things that break God's heart. I never want to forget the hopelessness and tears that I felt and shed on Tuesday when we visited a different orphanage (no where near as bright, beautiful, or caring as Beautiful Gate) or when we drove past the little girl who was sitting all alone in her tin structure that was her home. God please burn them in my mind so I can be a better person, mom, wife, friend, and neighbor."
God will not let me forget, so He is sending my whole family to Beautiful Gate so we can all grow, learn, experience Him, bless others, and be blessed. I am still amazed at the way God chose to answer my prayer because I never would have guessed His plan for us. It is with excitement that I look forward to His calling on our lives and above all else, I am learning that God always answers our prayers, just be prepared to be shocked and amazed at times by His answer. I know that this journey will be very hard too as I am already struggling a lot with the idea of leaving my family and friends for 5 years, but God has made His will clear and I know He will comfort me and my loved ones while we are apart