I guess 2 months is a long time for silence, but we have been kinda thinking that if you don't have anything nice to say, it is best to be silent.
We are still hurting a lot. We miss Elijah terribly. We look forward to Sundays because we get to Facetime with him. All 6 of us feel the loss of having his fun and outgoing personality around. He is doing great in MI and is excelling in school.
We miss mom and dad a lot. There are just still a lot of sad moments and with the holidays being here, it is just a reminder of what we no longer have to look forward to as we look to returning to MI. Faith, Mercy, Polita and Nthabeleng all mention at different times the sadness in their hearts.
We are still missing Kimberly and Lebo and the fun times we used to have every Wednesday. We usually spent a lot of extra time working on Thanksgiving and Christmas plans during this time of the year. It feels a lot more lonely without her sparkling and fun personality as I plan Thanksgiving this year.
We miss running BG and knowing all the kids by name and knowing what our staff members were going through on a daily basis. It feels so strange to be in Lesotho and not to be part of such a precious ministry in the capacity that we are used to.
All good things must come to an end, but we are just slowly mourning each of these losses.
I went to a missionary women's retreat 2 weekends ago and through many many tears, I felt a little bit of healing begin in my heart. The message and songs really felt like they were just for my heart, and it was such good timing. Then last weekend, Bryan and I went away for the weekend and had such good conversations. It felt good to just talk through our own thoughts and feelings over the losses we have experienced this past year.
We just don't feel like there is much to be thankful about this year. I hate the truth of that statement. I know that good things are happening all around us everyday, but we are not in a place to see it right now. We don't want to stay in this place of sadness and loss, but with so many things piled on, we are just trying to deal with one thing at a time.
Thanks for your continued love and prayers on our family's behalf.
