Though there are starving children living next door to me,
Though my son’s best friend is an orphan being raised by his older sister, and often does not have enough food to eat,
Though I do not have enough money to help some of the kids who need it desperately,
Though God has not chosen our family to be a forever family to the boys we love,
Though my heart has more scars in one year than it had in the first 34 put together,
Though God has called home a precious baby girl whom I love dearly,
Yet I will praise the Lord. His name will be praised in all circumstances and I will put my trust in Him because He has good plans for us.
One very important lesson I learned 12 years ago when my sister took her life was that God allows very painful and bad things to happen. He could have stopped her, blocked the lies of satan, and took her out of her desperate situation, but He did not.
God could have healed this baby girl. He could have saved her and allowed her to live long on this earth. Her mother was just about to sign the adoption papers which would have released her for adoption and He could have provided a loving family with a beautiful, sweet baby girl, but He did not.
Who am I to question His plan? In Jeremiah 29:11 God tells us that He has a plan for us and it is not in His plans to harm us. So while this may look like “harm” to our human eyes, God is sitting outside of time and orchestrating something good. I love God with my whole heart and although that heart is still hurting and scarred, it is trusting in Him completely. His love endures forever and I choose to accept His will and plan as I know that He is in control.
Anita
Amen!Thank you for sharing your heart and faith so beautifully. Continuing to pray for you!
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Well said, praying for you guys. Thank you for sharing your thought with us
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing Anita. This must be so painful on so many levels.... and all in a short period of time. Your perspective is so right and so true and an example to all who face trials and heartache. I will pray that you continue to lean on Him for strength and new mercies every morning and that you continue to trust Him even when you can't see His big plan. I am thankful for you this thanksgiving. That you have allowed God to work in you and that you have shared your journey with me. You truly are a model and I admire you very much! Here are lyrics to an old song "Trust His Heart". Thought they were fitting :)
ReplyDelete"All things work for our good
Though sometimes we don't see how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just don't see Him
Remember you're never alone
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart
Trust His heart
He sees the master plan
And He holds our future in His hand
So don't live as those who have no hope
All our hope is found in Him
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry
He's weaving you and me
To someday be just like Him
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart
Trust His heart
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart"
Praying you have a lighter week,
Karen B.
What a wonderful post. It brought tears to my eyes. Praying for you, your family and Beautiful Gate. A sister in Him. Michelle-Denver, CO
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