Some Days

Some days, I walk through the trees and look at the beautiful fall colors and I think of how deeply I missed that when I was in Lesotho. Some days, I look west in the evening and I think of the magnificent sunsets that were a part of my daily life in Lesotho.
Some days, my heart is filled with such unexplainable joy when I see my kids experiencing things which are part of the normal everyday lives of their American friends, but they relish it with such an innocent delight that it takes my breath away. Some days, I think of the late night conversations I had with my kids about a child in the hospital or a recent death of a BG kid and I remember my heart being filled with such a deep satisfaction that my kids really understand God even on our darkest days in Lesotho, even on days where I was tempted to doubt.
Some days I think 5 years is enough for our family to serve in Lesotho, but then I think 5 years is no where near enough time. But today, I am not worried. I am not stressed. I know whose I am. I know that God will show us the way, He will guide our path and our steps because He is close to us and He cares about us. He will prepare the way for the next leader when the time is right and He will be faithful.
Since being home I have discovered a new song which is my new favorite. The Great I Am by Phillips, Craig and Dean. It is a perfect reminder of who God is and that He is in control. He knows my future and I do not need to worry or be afraid because I am being lead by the Great I AM!!!