The last couple of days have been downer kind of days. I am not even sure I could put my finger on the exact cause, but I feel drained and worn out. There have been issues coming up on all sides with staff, volunteers, staff family members, government issues and BG kids. Sometimes I feel like we are drowning in issues, but we have to keep our heads above water so we can still run the day to day operations of Beautiful Gate, not to mention the responsibilities of raising and teaching our kids. It can be overwhelming at times and I am just in one of those phases right now.
There is one situation that I keep coming back to and I am desperate for God to move in this area, but the door has been slammed shut. It involves the health of one of our BG kids (who is not matched right now) and I ask you to pray with me that God will open the door or show us an even better option very soon. I hate the despair that I feel because I do have faith that God can do all things, He just seems to be saying no right now and I need to accept His timing. This is stretching me.
It is days like these where I wonder why God did not pick someone stronger, smarter or more experienced to help run Beautiful Gate. Today, I feel weak and unprepared for the calling. I just ask that in this moment of weakness that you pray for us, our family, our staff and their families and our kids here at Beautiful Gate. Thank you
Praying! Thanks for the openness. I can surely relate to your feelings here--at least to some extent. What you folks are doing requires an abundance of 'around you' prayer support because it is so challenging...yet SO rewarding.
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