Becoming family

My new schedule involves waking up sometime between 5:45 and 6:30am and I am pretty much crashing at 9pm. I feel like I have a new born again :) There have been some pretty amazing moments this week like when N wanted to go out and give daddy a hug when he got home from work, but then she chickened out when we got to him. The thought counted. We have a nightly routine that we have done since E was born and it has been so nice to get the girls involved in our routine. We read a bible story, pray and then we give a blessing over the kids. There is a part in the blessing where E,F, and M say a part and P and N have started saying it too. So awesome!!!! 2 nights ago when I tucked P and N into bed, they both initiated a hug and a kiss and then surprised me by saying they loved me. Wow, that is a pretty awesome thing to hear your daughters say.
Our journey has also been a bit rough this past week with some very unexpected issues. There are moments where as a parent, you really need to rely on God's wisdom and strength as you blend your family into one unit. But, I have found that there are far more moments where I just feel so blessed and thankful that I get to walk this journey. I have begun to really have feeling of complete love as I look at my sweet little girls, and they really are beginning to feel like they have always been a part of our family. I love the way God can mold and make families fit together and be close through His grace. It does not mean there won't be "growing pains" on both sides as we figure each other out, but it means that we will all be in this together loving and supporting each other as we live life together. I couldn't think of 6 other people I would love walking through life with than the ones God has blessed me with. I may be tired and a little scatter brained at times, but it is worth it :)