My New Love

I know better than this...
I have learned the hard way before...
Yet I still allow myself to do it...

I have fallen head over heels in love with a precious little girl. For the past two months, I have been spending some of my free time working with her. She is over a year old and could not hold her head up. She has little muscle tone, and is mostly if not completely blind. There are many other things that she is struggling with and that we do not have answers for, yet she is the MOST beautiful girl I have ever seen. She rarely cries and her eyes are so intensely lovely that she just draws you in. She finally knows my voice and touch to the point that she does not startle every minute like she did when I first started holding her and my heart squeezes inside my chest in those few instances when I say her name or touch her and she smiles. Oh, God it just takes my breath away.

Faith and Mercy love to help me with her and have fallen in love with her too!

To those who have the chance to help her, she is insignificant and overlooked. The doctors will not give a referral for her to be tested so that we know how best to help her. They think she is a lost cause, a future vegetable who would need 24 hour care, but I KNOW my God is bigger than that. In the 2 months I have worked with her, I have seen change and growth and she can hold her head decently now verses nothing at all 2 months ago. She responds to my touch and knows me so there is obviously some recognition and brain functioning. It is so sad and frustrating when you are dependent on a medical referral to go to the next step and they won't give it.
Yet, God has recently provided me with a new friend who is an OT and who has agreed to help me work with her and several other kids who are developmentally delayed and today a team from the states arrived with a pediatric physical therapist who is going to show me lots of exercises to try and brought very helpful tools. God is providing knowledge to help even though I have been feeling miserable about her situation. Please join me in prayer that these exercises will show such improvement that the doctors will change their minds and give us a referral to see a specialist and get a EKG and other testing that is needed for us to really make an impact on this little girl's life. I do not know her story enough to know if she is even able to be adopted in the future, but I want to provide her with HOPE for her future no matter where God places her.