Needing Wisdom

Emotions are such a tricky thing and I sometimes wonder what to do with them. Living in Lesotho has proven to be too much for my emotions at times because I have feelings of great joy and feelings of complete despair on the same day. It sure can be tiring! Today was not nearly to that extreme,  yet I feel very drained.

Today Terp and I followed Donna (a member of our team from Mississippi) around and videotaped her working with some of our special needs kids. At first it was really cool and amazing to watch her work, but after several hours, it began to feel overwhelming. Terp and I looked at each other and expressed the same thoughts that our staff, as good as their hearts are for the kids, do not have the time to work this diligently with our special needs kids and still care for the 12-14 other kids in their home. I run out of time to do simple things in my house and I am only raising 3 kids!!!

While I am looking forward to having our lovely missionary friend, Mari, come and help out, I realize that there needs to be day to day “work” in order to make an impact with these special kids. Some options are being tossed around in our minds right now and I ask that you pray for us to have wisdom.

You see, God has entrusted these kids into our care and it is not a responsibility that Bryan or I can take lightly. What we choose and how we implement corrective approaches to situations like this, can improve or be a detriment to a child for the rest of their life. Early intervention is the key to success for so many kids. So that is why I sit here with my emotions going up and down. I am happy we have found people to come alongside us and give us sound advice, yet I am overwhelmed by the great amount of need before me. I am so pleased with the progress I have seen in some of these kids in the last 2 months, yet I am fearful of the long road ahead for one girl in particular. I am trusting God and trying to tune out the lies of satan. Please pray for all of us here at Beautiful Gate as we strive for excellence so that God’s glory can shine through the kids He has entrusted into our care. Pray that we seek Him first in all we do so that any successes we have can point to Him.